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Feb 18·edited Feb 18

I call it death math. It is so confusing! Both my parents died suddenly and tomorrow it will be 13 years since my dad died...I just did the math...again. Thank you for putting words to it so well. Along with my dad being in my heart this week, the number 19 will be there as well ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Death math is so accurate! That's exactly it! And thank you so much for upgrading to paid, and for taking care of my dad when she gets to the US! I'm sorry I can't quite figure out how to reply properly, via email but it really is so much appreciated and if there's anything you need from me, or would like to see me write about, please do let me know. Lots and lots of love to you xxxxx

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A week on Monday it’ll be 10 years without my mum, and I’m very much feeling all the same feelings (known and unknown) as you. I hope you see lots of crocuses on Saturday 💛

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Sending you so much love. It's exactly that, the known and the unknown! I was musing today that also I think these long anniversaries are hard as they're a reminder this will be with us for our lives... but then at the same time, it's also a reminder of how much we've survived, and coped with too, ON TOP of missing them! Argh! Lots of love x

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Thank you for sharing this piece it's completely normal to feel a range of emotions, from deep sorrow to fond memories and everything in between. Today marks 9 years without my dad. I hear and feel you. Sending you love and light.

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Thank you so much Sandy. It’s so good to know this is how others feel too and why writing this newsletter is so important to me. Lots of brightness and love to you xxx

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I am so sorry to read about what you're going through. Nothing can compare to the death of a loved one, let alone a mother. My nan was my mother, and I lost her too. It's heartbreaking and the grief doesn't go away. But this newsletter made me think and feel and cry. Thank you a million times. And yes, there will be brightness, I am so sure of that. For you especially, for me too. For everyone who is deeply grieving...

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Thank you Carmen, I so appreciate your words. I'm sorry about your nan, I once wrote about how difficult it is to lose a grandparent as they are such important, parental figures in our lives too. Sending you love and brightness xxx

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Thank you Catriona! Sending you lots of love and brightness too during this difficult week! xx

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I've been staring at this empty comments box for ever such a long time, knowing i want to say something, but not knowing what....crying a lot, but good tears, because that's what your writing so often releases in me. And thinking of this amazing woman we call mum but who I always knew as Susie and thinking how proud she'd be (is) of you and all the comfort you bring to so many people in the world. Including me. Thank you my love. I'm so proud of you too.....

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I love you. xx

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